New year resolutions

Study hard, minus off some slacking at least.
Not to be late to class more than 2 times a week.
Stop the moody-ness.
etc.


and i wish people will be nicer when the clock strucks 12am.


They should fly me away ,
to a place where things will get better,
and I'll be happier,
where no tears will be shed.


Hello Brunei,
I'm not having a good time here this holiday :'(
but i dont wanna go back to Singapore either.

....and all things done.

Cried ... its contagious, seriously.
PrayedJust listened some Buddism things and Folded paper money
( eventhough i'm not allowed to, but well, just doing it for grandpa)



Was a vegetarian for 3 days..until the clock strikes 12am later.
Was walking barefooted and socks today.
( my feet = super rough now)

Ate standing up and with no chopsticks.
Tied candies and red cloth.

Was a treasurer, receiving 'bai jing' from people.
Was a photographer, asked to take pictures ...


Shared a bed with cuz Eric.
Hid my phone when adults were coming in to the bedroom..lol



What? My lil cousin got scolded by her mum.
We're getting ready for bed in the room ( the adults were outside)
then my cousin was dancing and singing to Taylor Swift's You belong with me
her mum came in and said,

'' No singing and dancing please''

*continues to sing and dance*

'' I SAID NO ENTERTAINMENT, WE"RE MOURNING''

lol



While some are just more open..

we've got rules of not to sit while eating,
but one of my uncle -

'' Grandpa's gonna scold you guys for eating while standing''

''imitates grandpa's scolding''

lol again?


To me, guess just be more positive, grandpa's not gonna like it anyways
if we're crying and being sad, so yeah.


More than 800+ people who came to pay their respects and with all those condolences
flower wreaths lining up, my cousins and me called my grandpa , ''mafia''


oh yeah

Thanks to those who send condolences, those who texted me ,
and parents who came to my grandparents house. Really thanks.



I'm super tired.
Wonder if miracle would happen to my model making...



Let's see

I' m not sure if i can go out or not, as in meeting up with friends,
but i neeeeeed to.
Bye.

PS-

and i've been thinking a lot these few days...
after so many things, its hard to believe in people
People change, and sometimes they make you change.

You maybe important to them , but when it's time, they'll just flick you away.
Don't try to help when you cant even help yourself, and
Don't love someone more than they love you.

Let us laugh at people who think they're so cool,
Let us cry for those who's worth our tears

*smells hair...crap it still smells like smoke,
eventhough i shampoo-ed it for 4 times)

no more inspiration for writing,

bye for real.



opps, did someone said we aren't suppose to online for 1 week?
:O oh well.

Think im gonna bake some later again.

Christmas Eve at Nora's.

I never knew Bacardi 151 's 75% ..i always thought its 40%
Now i know.

Ughh, i feel like crap an d i need to attend Christmas mass later at 9am.


Merry Christmas to all.


I wish

I can finish my assignments soon.
Will not kill myself in DID.
Grandpa will be okay .
To be strong , really strong.
Everyone's gonna be happy .


Wow...i still can blog.

Bye.

Tell me ...

My brother told me my face resembles Winnie when he saw that picture.



Everyone's saying I'm fatter on the face when i came back.
My mum's first comment when she saw me,'' Your face looks round.''


Gonna be careful of my diet.
No more shortbreads before bed.



Oh yeah, went to retouch my frizzy hair roots and fringe yesterday,
now its making my head looks bigger.

Holiday assignments given , esp the tetris model which i have
to submit on the first day of school, left all my HTI book references in SG cause they're way too heavy, and i'm gonna finish it real quick when i go back.
Grandpa's very ill and everyone's just waiting for the 'time'.



I was afraid to deal with facts,
I didnt want to come home.
I was afraid things will be different.
What can i say?
I have 2 homes,
and i wonder where i belong.


Being in Brunei and worried about things back in Singapore. -assignments-
Being in Singapore and worried about things back in Brunei. -grandpa-


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Well, back in Brunei on Friday.

Till the last minute, I was still determined to bring my guitar back.

I got bombed.

They said there's no point bringing it back when my things are already overweight.


Well, thats because they dont know that


before buying my guitar,
i already told my brother that im bringing it back so he can teach me..
Owning the guitar,
I told him the songs i wanna learn,
before he goes back to Perth on the 26th.


It really breaks my heart.

If I was to pay for my overweight assignment materials,
why cant they let me pay for my guitar?


-mean-





I got bored waiting, so i was taking pictures in the airport


Went to the airport real early that day, checked in super late thanks to the counter
service.Was running so fast to the gate , so fast that i nearly got asthma.


Got my penknife and scissors in my pencil case confiscated cause I was actually
suppose tocheck in that specific luggage but i handcarried so it'll not be super overweight
...and i forgot.


Damn, my $7 penknife.



Some passengers and me got scolded by the Indian dude at the gate counter
cause we're late, like 10 minutes before the plane's gonna depart.

I was so pissed of everything, so i talked back to him.
Duh, its your counter service's fault.


Air Asia.
Nice service you have.



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Went to Bandar and visited grandpa with my mum and aunt just now.
Good that i didnt cry.

Grandpa, its me.
I'm back from Singapore.

I repeated 3 times,
and he heard it on the last.

It hurts a lot.


How he cried when its painful.
The sounds.
The pipes.
Boney arms and head.
Cant move, cant eat, cant talk, breathing through mouth.


Everyone's just waiting.

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I would like to say,

Im very proud of my brother.

Coming back from Perth for holiday
and turns out staying in the hospital taking care of grandpa for nearly 2 weeks.

Sleeping only at noon and waking up at night and morning to be with grandpa.


Bless you.
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Should turn in early.
Church later and off to visit grandpa in the late afternoon.


Hello friends,
really hope i can catch up woth you guys soon,

and

I'm okay, dont worry.
I'm one tough cookie cupcake.

My mind = the picture above

Saw a little girl who really looks like Stephy. Awwww... miss them a lot, esp Tashie.
Hope she still remember me.



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XDM presentation tomorrow.
Err, what am i gonna talk about?

A big pheww


Okay, let me just upload a few pictures for now.


My architectonic model comprising of only toothpicks
(well,thousand of toothpicks) .


Title : Alternate
( from my trapeze circus act..thus all the loops and swirls)

To be honest, i am super unsatisfied with this , eventhough i was bending (4 accurate and
even bends on one toothpick and 5 on some) and sticking them like mad.
I missed outthe word 'complexity' where many did apply to their models.

Oh well, i designed it that way and I've tried my best, i should be positive about it, since critique is tomorrow..
*prays*

Amazing Race photo essay

We're given this blurred map and codes to be cracked within like half day, and the next afternoon, we went to this 'pit stop' at Sterling road. Some of my shots...

I will never forget how the last few days/ weeks was like. Complete mess, complete pandemonium, like your heart is gonna fall out soon.

was wow.


We were sitting at the 2nd row of the cinema.. so the impact was pretty big i can say
=.=
I cried through out the whole movie.

*sobs*




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As i said, critique session tomorrow,
for my puppet, model, and photo essay.
God bless .



I know Im not doing so well this term,
and i dont think i can get an A for any module.
But i do hope i'll do better next term.

Kiasu much.